Semalam jalan2 cari kereta sebelum pergi ke rumah Uncle Lan untuk open house. Budget nak beli kereta $1000 je. Skali terbeli $2700.
Camne boleh jadi gitu?
Pergi tpt jual used car. Dah call org tu the day before tanye pasal kereta harga $500. Dia iklankan kereta $500 tu kat internet. Tapi katanya dah jual kat org lain (tapi rasanya dia tipu lah. Dia letak iklan tu sbb nak bagi org call dia kot haha). Pastu dia tanya budget brapa. Cakap kat diye $1000 je. Dia tanya kerja ke tak. Cakap lah Ajoy tgh cari. Dia kata, apa kata dia jual kete yang lagi mahal dari $1000, tapi Ajoy boleh keje dgn dia and bayar balik secara ansuran. Kereta yang dia nak jual harganya $2700 (ada yang $2500 tapi tak best).
Fikir2 balik, dapat kereta yang elok siket, and dapat kerja sekali. Kalau kereta rosak, boleh complaint tros since kerja dgn dia. Ok jugak lah, walaupon kebanyakan gaji awal2 kene gune untuk bayar kereta. Yang penting, ada kereta and ada kerja. Kereta beli harga gini, at least bile nak balik Msia nanti boleh jual balik.
So, kami pon amek la kereta tu. Jadinya esok Ajoy akan start kerja cuci2 kereta. Mungkin tanam pokok skali. Tgk la kalau org tu ade kenal org yg nak pakai IT specialist lagi bagos. Dia kata dia kenal ramai orang. Hmm..
Takpelah, bersusah2 dahulu bersenang2 kemudian.
Hopefully rezeki kami semakin murah selepas ini. Amiiinn..
p/s: smlm Ajoy masak n basuhkan kain. Hari ni Ajoy tolong masak skali. Masak banyak hari ni. Sediakan bekal untuk esok skali. Ye la..mahal nak makan kat luar ni..
Sunday, September 19, 2010
Friday, September 17, 2010
Something new
Apart from my regular posts, I want to try something new.
Everyday (or at least try to..) I want to jot down the things Mr.Husband does for me. Just for remembrance sake.
People say there will be times in the relationship when the people in the relationship will fight each other. So, IF that time ever happen (hopefully not, nauzubillah), I want to have something that reminds me how much I love him and how much he loves me. And I think writing down what he does for me helps.
So anyway, let's start:
Today Mr. Husband suddenly gave me a full body massage on the couch while watching Jamie Oliver cooks on TV. I didn't ask for it, he did it just because. And o boy it was great, considering my back seems to hurt a lot.
And..although this did not happen today, but, I'll write it down anyway.
A few days ago, as I opened the door after coming back from school, I noticed the shoes were properly arranged. And the whole house was vacuumed clean. And even the kitchen was clean. And also the bathroom! Mr. Husband cleaned the whole house while I was at school. Don't you wish your husband does the same? :)
Owh, and don't forget how he took care of the house and me while I had the miscarriage. He cooked, cleaned, and stayed by my side the whole time..that's really something I won't forget.
Have I told you how much I love my husband?
This much oo
(that's supposed to be the infinity sign haha)
Everyday (or at least try to..) I want to jot down the things Mr.Husband does for me. Just for remembrance sake.
People say there will be times in the relationship when the people in the relationship will fight each other. So, IF that time ever happen (hopefully not, nauzubillah), I want to have something that reminds me how much I love him and how much he loves me. And I think writing down what he does for me helps.
So anyway, let's start:
Today Mr. Husband suddenly gave me a full body massage on the couch while watching Jamie Oliver cooks on TV. I didn't ask for it, he did it just because. And o boy it was great, considering my back seems to hurt a lot.
And..although this did not happen today, but, I'll write it down anyway.
A few days ago, as I opened the door after coming back from school, I noticed the shoes were properly arranged. And the whole house was vacuumed clean. And even the kitchen was clean. And also the bathroom! Mr. Husband cleaned the whole house while I was at school. Don't you wish your husband does the same? :)
Owh, and don't forget how he took care of the house and me while I had the miscarriage. He cooked, cleaned, and stayed by my side the whole time..that's really something I won't forget.
Have I told you how much I love my husband?
This much oo
(that's supposed to be the infinity sign haha)
Monday, September 6, 2010
To our first child.
Dear Pushie/Ajoy jr.,
6th August was the day I found that you were in my tummy. It was also mommy&daddy's 6-months anniversary. I found out about it very early in the morning. At about 3am. I couldn't sleep, maybe because I took too much caffeine. Anyway, I called daddy as soon as the second band showed up on the pregnancy test strip. I can't tell you how much daddy smiled that day. From the moment I told him, till night, he was smiling from ear to ear, constantly kissing me and telling me how much he loves you and me.
Everyday from that day onwards, had been wonderful. Although I couldn't physically feel you, but I knew you were in me. You were very tiny, yet only Allah knows how much you drained my energy. But I never complained. I rested as much as I needed, and Alhamdulillah daddy has always been besides me whenever I needed him. Daddy never complained either. We only wanted you to be healthy.
Since the early days of knowing about your existence, I couldn't help but feel worry everytime my lower stomach cramped. I knew you were there. I prayed everytime after my daily prayers for you to be safe. But who am I kidding. I knew a mother's instinct is usually correct. Everytime I felt the cramp, secretly, deep inside, I felt something was wrong. I remember a few days before you left my tummy. There was no pain, no blood, whatsoever. But, somehow I felt you were not there. I felt like I was not pregnant. I didn't want to feel that way, but it's just how I felt. I tried hard to threw away the feeling.
But owh how I was right. A few days after, on 26th August 2010, I started bleeding. It was a very tiny bleeding for a couple of days. But on the 28th night, 12am on the 29th to be exact, the bleeding started to get heavy. Very heavy in fact, as if I got my period. And owh, the cramp. It was a bad cramp, as if I had period pain. I was in a huge worry. Especially when I saw those blood clots. Owh, I can't tell you how much I hoped I would never see you in those blood clots. I couldn't help myself, and I broke into tears. Although daddy was still in high hope that you had survived, deep inside, I knew you hadn't. It was a bad night. I went to bed crying in daddy's arms.
The day after that we went to see a doctor. The doctor asked me to go have the ultrasound done. She also told us the possibility that I had lost you. But daddy's hope was still high. The next day we went to the hospital. They didn't see you in my uterus, but they asked us to go to an ultrasound specialist anyway, as they were not trained for that. We went for external and internal ultrasound the next day. And then it's final. You were not in my tummy anymore. Although I had expected it, it was still very saddening. I had to hold back my tears, and pretended in front of everyone that I was okay, but no, I wasn't. Later that day, I cried my heart out again. And daddy did too.
Pushie/Ajoy jr.,
Although you were in my tummy for 37-38 days (7++ weeks medically), mommy and daddy loved you so much. Maybe that's why it's so hard to learn that you were not with us anymore. I also regret it a bit that we didn't get the chance to take a glance at you. We didn't know how you looked like. For most couples, the first ultrasound appointment is the most exciting ultrasound experience, as that's when they get to see their babies for the first time, but for us, the first ultrasound was the scariest and the saddest experience, as that's when we learned that you were not there anymore. But you know what, it's okay. Although you are not here now, you were here. And you have thought us how it feels to be parents. And we are grateful for that.
This may or may not be a regret, but losing you at day 37-38 might be a good thing. I am pretty sure your soul should have been 'blown' into you on day 40, so I am pretty sure your heart was not beating yet when you went out of my tummy. So, maybe, when I lost you, you were not here, soul-wise. So maybe, mommy and daddy will see you when mommy get pregnant again, insyaAllah.
Anyway, I am just writing to you to completely let go of you. I thought I have let you go, but watching my friends talking about how their babies were waving and kicking during ultrasound reminded me of you, and I couldn't help but feeling sad again. But hey, life goes on. You are gone, but you are never forgotten. You will always be our first child.
Sayang, kami redha kamu sudah tiada.
We love you.
Love;
Mommy and Daddy
6th August was the day I found that you were in my tummy. It was also mommy&daddy's 6-months anniversary. I found out about it very early in the morning. At about 3am. I couldn't sleep, maybe because I took too much caffeine. Anyway, I called daddy as soon as the second band showed up on the pregnancy test strip. I can't tell you how much daddy smiled that day. From the moment I told him, till night, he was smiling from ear to ear, constantly kissing me and telling me how much he loves you and me.
Everyday from that day onwards, had been wonderful. Although I couldn't physically feel you, but I knew you were in me. You were very tiny, yet only Allah knows how much you drained my energy. But I never complained. I rested as much as I needed, and Alhamdulillah daddy has always been besides me whenever I needed him. Daddy never complained either. We only wanted you to be healthy.
Since the early days of knowing about your existence, I couldn't help but feel worry everytime my lower stomach cramped. I knew you were there. I prayed everytime after my daily prayers for you to be safe. But who am I kidding. I knew a mother's instinct is usually correct. Everytime I felt the cramp, secretly, deep inside, I felt something was wrong. I remember a few days before you left my tummy. There was no pain, no blood, whatsoever. But, somehow I felt you were not there. I felt like I was not pregnant. I didn't want to feel that way, but it's just how I felt. I tried hard to threw away the feeling.
But owh how I was right. A few days after, on 26th August 2010, I started bleeding. It was a very tiny bleeding for a couple of days. But on the 28th night, 12am on the 29th to be exact, the bleeding started to get heavy. Very heavy in fact, as if I got my period. And owh, the cramp. It was a bad cramp, as if I had period pain. I was in a huge worry. Especially when I saw those blood clots. Owh, I can't tell you how much I hoped I would never see you in those blood clots. I couldn't help myself, and I broke into tears. Although daddy was still in high hope that you had survived, deep inside, I knew you hadn't. It was a bad night. I went to bed crying in daddy's arms.
The day after that we went to see a doctor. The doctor asked me to go have the ultrasound done. She also told us the possibility that I had lost you. But daddy's hope was still high. The next day we went to the hospital. They didn't see you in my uterus, but they asked us to go to an ultrasound specialist anyway, as they were not trained for that. We went for external and internal ultrasound the next day. And then it's final. You were not in my tummy anymore. Although I had expected it, it was still very saddening. I had to hold back my tears, and pretended in front of everyone that I was okay, but no, I wasn't. Later that day, I cried my heart out again. And daddy did too.
Pushie/Ajoy jr.,
Although you were in my tummy for 37-38 days (7++ weeks medically), mommy and daddy loved you so much. Maybe that's why it's so hard to learn that you were not with us anymore. I also regret it a bit that we didn't get the chance to take a glance at you. We didn't know how you looked like. For most couples, the first ultrasound appointment is the most exciting ultrasound experience, as that's when they get to see their babies for the first time, but for us, the first ultrasound was the scariest and the saddest experience, as that's when we learned that you were not there anymore. But you know what, it's okay. Although you are not here now, you were here. And you have thought us how it feels to be parents. And we are grateful for that.
This may or may not be a regret, but losing you at day 37-38 might be a good thing. I am pretty sure your soul should have been 'blown' into you on day 40, so I am pretty sure your heart was not beating yet when you went out of my tummy. So, maybe, when I lost you, you were not here, soul-wise. So maybe, mommy and daddy will see you when mommy get pregnant again, insyaAllah.
Anyway, I am just writing to you to completely let go of you. I thought I have let you go, but watching my friends talking about how their babies were waving and kicking during ultrasound reminded me of you, and I couldn't help but feeling sad again. But hey, life goes on. You are gone, but you are never forgotten. You will always be our first child.
Sayang, kami redha kamu sudah tiada.
We love you.
Love;
Mommy and Daddy
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