How I met your father

Feb 16, 2011. It has passed midnight and I cannot sleep.

Dah lebih 2thn couple baru nk tulis. Sblm ni nak tulis, tp xjd. Skrg dh kawin, tulislah. For memory's sake. Dh tua2 nanti bace balik mesti best. Hehe. Oh, tulis pasal apa? Tulis camne boleh couple lah. Hehe.

So ceritanya start bile ajoy try add kat yahoo messenger, tp di reject beberapa kali sebelum di ignore since yahoo id Ajoy mcm spam. Haha. Sampaila sorang kawan kitorg bgtau itu Ajoy. Baru la di un-ignored n approved. Rupe2nye Ajoy tried nk buat reunion kawan2 skolah rendah, so he was trying to get in touch with everyone. That was sometime in early September 2008 if I'm not mistaken. Mase bulan puasa.

The first phone called Ajoy made to me was a few days after that. I was driving balik keje mase tu. Naseb la jalan jem n xde polis around, so dptla layan sat. It was quite a long call for me, considering I am not much of a chatter, but Ajoy is. Diye kate nk jumpe bile2 nk discuss pasal reunion, so I said okay.

So finally sometime mid September, we met, together with Shahir. My first impression on him was, "Hensem gak Ajoy ni." Well, he had the masculine qualities that I liked. Well-built, tall, and handsome, but not metrosexual. He had a little moustache n goatee, which enhanced his masculinity even more. But having that said, I admired his smooth skin n long eyelashes, which I clearly didn't have. He was a chatter to, although most of the time him and shahir made stupid inside jokes that I barely understood, but i wasn't left alone. All in all, it was nice talking to him. Oh, did I mention he was wearing a kain pelikat because he was from the surau? Somehow I feel men in kain pelikat are sexy. Hehe J

So after that night, we met occasionally, mostly to discuss about the reunion. However there was one time where I accompanied him to Jusco Wangsa Maju for window shopping. I held his jacket while he was trying on a blazer, which he later admitted, was the time he started to feel something towards me (because of the way I was holding his jacket).

Anyway, not long after, it was time for raya. I didn't get any raya wishes from my friends (except from Jeeb), so I kinda felt like a loser. Suddenly on the second day of raya, which was on Oct 2, Ajoy texted me to wish slmt hari raya. So I replied, thanking him for making me less of a loser, and before we knew it, we continued texting each other for longer than 24 hours! Somewhere in the long texts thread, Ajoy threw me some signs, like asking me for my criteria of a perfect man, and also about my past relationships, if I remember it correctly. And when I told him that we could beat other couples even when we were not a couple because we had been texting each other non-stop (except for when I fell asleep) for 24 hours, he seemed excited and happy, albeit being in disbelief. That was the time I knew he definitely had some feelings for me, although maybe not that strong, yet.

The next morning, I went to pick him up to visit our friends for raya. And quite naturally, we acted more like a couple although we were not! He constantly watched over me, and finished my drinks whenever I couldn't finish them. He also constantly said he didn't want me to further my study oversea. However, when I asked him why he didn’t want me to go oversea while we were in the car, shyly—as if he was trying to hide something—he told me that it had only been a while since we got to meet again (as friends), and for me to go away again, was..saddening. I just laughed a bit because I knew that was not the real reason. After reaching his home, he told me that he would text me the real reason later that night.

So sure enough, he texted me right after I got home. After some mundane yet couply-type messeges (“dah sampai rumah?”, “siapa ada kat rumah?”, etc.), I asked him the real reason, but he didn't give me a straight answer. Pretty sure that he liked me, i told him that I knew he liked me and if he really liked me, I wanted him to come to see my parents and ask my hand in marriage (yes, I was that bold haha). Sure enough he was shocked, but I told him that I was tired of worthless relationships, so I was not interested in a gf-bf relationship. He told me that he felt the same way too (although I don't think he really felt that way because I think he really wanted us to be more than friends haha), but he couldn't ask me to marry him yet because of money problem, etc. Thinking that it's fair enough, I told him that it's alright, and we should just wait and see how things go.

After that night, we saw each other every night. I know I said I didn't want to be in a bf-gf relationship, but seeing him had become an addiction. We (well, at least me) would try to find a reason to see each other. After three days, I thought, "This is ridiculous. Who are we kidding?" So, on Oct 8, 2008, during our usual all day texting, I asked him if he wanted to declare us as a couple since we were acting like one anyway, although we pretended we were not. And of course he said okay (haha). So at exactly 1232pm, we were officially a couple.

After that day onwards, we follow the flow. He came to see my parents a few days later, just like we wanted (yes, he wanted to as well), although he didn't ask to marry me right away. Within the next few months, we constantly tried to talk to our family about letting us get married, although I wouldn't deny that it was hard considering we had only been together for a short period of time. But well, when you have found the right person, you will know. And we both knew that we were meant for each other despite being together for only a few weeks.

So peeps, that's how I met Ajoy (terpengaruh dengan cerita How I met your mother haha. O well, that’s not really how I met Ajoy, but that’s the story of how we got together. How I met Ajoy is a completely different story). The story goes on with his family came for merisik on Oct 25, 2009, we got engaged on Dec 12, 2009, and we got married on Feb 6, 2010 (the wedding was pulled sooner than planned because I had to go to Australia to do my masters degree on Feb 22, 2010). Ajoy joined me in Australia on July 4, 2010, and now we are waiting for our first child, who is due to be born on June 28, 2011.

So far, life is good. Life is great in fact, albeit being a poor student expecting a child. But having a great loving husband makes it all seems okay. I feel blessed. Alhamdulillah.

-0102 am. Feb 16, 2011. I should join Ajoy in dreamworld. Seronok je tgk diye tido. Good night.

P/s: post ni last2 ditulis dlm English lak. I guess I am more comfortable writing in English, despite making lots of grammatical error. Haha.

1st wedding anniversary and update

Wow, it's been a loooong time since the last time I wrote in here. Guess I've become lazier, other than being accompanied with works and things.

Anyway, yesterday was our first wedding anniversary. We were excited. So excited that we exchanged gifts a week before. Haha! He bought me a watch, and I bought him a photo frame to put our first anniversary picture together. I know it's not expensive at all, but hopefully it will last long; long enough that it will remind us of our first anniversary when we get all wrinkly.

So how did we spend our first anniversary? Well, I started the day making him a special breakfast (at least I tried to). I wanted to make waffle, but since we don't own any waffle iron, I made the waffle batter and cook it like pancakes. Didn't turn out as crispy and fluffy of course (haha), but it's more special than normal pancakes. I served it with grilled white peaches and maple syrup. And I made a nescafe mocha instead of his favorite plain nescafe.

After breakfast at around 830am, we headed to Tidbinbilla Nature Reserve. The weather at home looked like it was about to rain, but we were praying it wouldn't at Tidbinbilla (Tidbinbilla is located approximately 35-40 km from home). And alhamdulillah, the weather turned out to be just nice in Tidbinbilla--neither sunny and hot, nor raining. It was a bit windy and cloudy, just nice for a walk. We bought the annual pass since it costs only $13 for a student. After getting the map, we headed straight to the bbq area and cooked some sausages and a piece of steak.

After eating and taking a few photos of the kangaroos resting around the bbq area, we drove and parked near to the place where the map said we could see some platypus. However, other than some swans and ducks and another species that looked like the hybrid of both, we didn't see any platypus. Still keeping our hope high, we went to another another place to see the platypus, but still, there wasn't any. I was devastated, but that's alright. The kind weather, beautiful nature, cute wallaroos, wallabes, and kangaroos everywhere, and of course, a loving husband were enough to make my day. And of course, it's our anniversary, why would I be sad? Then, we went to the vet and reptile center (which was empty when we got there) before heading back home.

We reached home at around 245pm. It was quite a tiring day, so both of us took a nap (or rather, slept, since it was for more than an hour haha) before going for dinner at Figaro Restaurant. We reached Figaro at approximately 645pm, earlier than our 7pm reservation. The restaurant looked kinda cheap from the outside, but it was quite fancy inside. We started our meal with chilli mussels, and it was good. Ajoy ordered an apple juice, and I was fine with plain water. For main, Ajoy ordered risotto pescatore (seafood risotto in tomato sauce), and I ordered spaghetti frutti di mare (seafood spaghetti in light tomato sauce). Both dishes were full of squids and a couple of each mussels and prawns, but owh-so-huge! Ajoy finished his (and he helped some of mine), but of course I didn't finish mine, because I was full. They were good, but maybe the only complaint that I had was that they cooked the seafood for too long that they turned chewy. Other than that, they were fine. Then we wanted to order a three layer cheesecake called 'mortal sin' but they didn't have it yesterday. The waitress suggested tiramisu; however since normally people put alcohol in tiramisu, we ended up not ordering any cake. Instead we ordered an affagato--espresso poured on a scoop of hazelnut gelato. It was HEAVEN! Maybe because they have an award-winning gelato (a score of 99.5% is very good, isn't it?), and the espresso is so good. Seriously, it was so tasty, I could have seconds. But of course, since we had to pay for it, so one was enough. The bill came out to be $80.70--the highest ever for us--but it was worth it. Besides, it's for special occassion :) At around 830pm, we went home. And since we didn't have dessert, I made chocolate fondue, served with navel oranges, white peaches and kiwis. A good end to a special day :)

So that's how we spent our first anniversary together. Owh and of course we took pictures together. One of these days we'll pick the best one to put on the frame I bought for him :)

So anyway, some updates on our lives. I am pregnant, again. I will be completing the 20th week tomorrow, so the baby is pretty big now. I cannot hide my tummy anymore. We went for ultrasound test last Friday, and found out that it's a boy! That explains the never-ending movements during the ultrasound. He's an active cute little baby boy that sometimes it hurts when he kicks! Alhamdulillah, everything looks fine, so we are expecting to have him on the 28th June 2011. Pray for us! :)

hari ini, semalam, kelmarin, dan hari sebelum itu

hari ni 8 oktober 2010

tgh hari nanti ajoy balik dari keje, diye nak blanje tgk wayang cerita eat, pray, love. (ye, kat sini baru keluar smlm huhu)

smlm ajoy blanje dinner dekat flavours of india.

kelmarin ajoy balik kerja, bawak satu plastik ikan, and surprisekan dgn bagi hadiah rantai emas+berlian. hadiah 8 bulan kahwin katenye.

hari sebelum tu ajoy urut blakang sampai bunyi tulang blakang/rusuk. uish, nikmat!

owh, ajoy is pampering me too much.

so what do i give him in return?

ruang tamu yang bersepah dengan kertas2 sbb asyik buat kerja kat ruang tamu. (buat atas meja tak best sbb meja kecik sangat and kerusi tak best buat bersila huhu)

owh saya isteri yang hampeh :/

Beli kereta

Semalam jalan2 cari kereta sebelum pergi ke rumah Uncle Lan untuk open house. Budget nak beli kereta $1000 je. Skali terbeli $2700.

Camne boleh jadi gitu?

Pergi tpt jual used car. Dah call org tu the day before tanye pasal kereta harga $500. Dia iklankan kereta $500 tu kat internet. Tapi katanya dah jual kat org lain (tapi rasanya dia tipu lah. Dia letak iklan tu sbb nak bagi org call dia kot haha). Pastu dia tanya budget brapa. Cakap kat diye $1000 je. Dia tanya kerja ke tak. Cakap lah Ajoy tgh cari. Dia kata, apa kata dia jual kete yang lagi mahal dari $1000, tapi Ajoy boleh keje dgn dia and bayar balik secara ansuran. Kereta yang dia nak jual harganya $2700 (ada yang $2500 tapi tak best).

Fikir2 balik, dapat kereta yang elok siket, and dapat kerja sekali. Kalau kereta rosak, boleh complaint tros since kerja dgn dia. Ok jugak lah, walaupon kebanyakan gaji awal2 kene gune untuk bayar kereta. Yang penting, ada kereta and ada kerja. Kereta beli harga gini, at least bile nak balik Msia nanti boleh jual balik.

So, kami pon amek la kereta tu. Jadinya esok Ajoy akan start kerja cuci2 kereta. Mungkin tanam pokok skali. Tgk la kalau org tu ade kenal org yg nak pakai IT specialist lagi bagos. Dia kata dia kenal ramai orang. Hmm..

Takpelah, bersusah2 dahulu bersenang2 kemudian.

Hopefully rezeki kami semakin murah selepas ini. Amiiinn..

p/s: smlm Ajoy masak n basuhkan kain. Hari ni Ajoy tolong masak skali. Masak banyak hari ni. Sediakan bekal untuk esok skali. Ye la..mahal nak makan kat luar ni..

Something new

Apart from my regular posts, I want to try something new.

Everyday (or at least try to..) I want to jot down the things Mr.Husband does for me. Just for remembrance sake.

People say there will be times in the relationship when the people in the relationship will fight each other. So, IF that time ever happen (hopefully not, nauzubillah), I want to have something that reminds me how much I love him and how much he loves me. And I think writing down what he does for me helps.

So anyway, let's start:

Today Mr. Husband suddenly gave me a full body massage on the couch while watching Jamie Oliver cooks on TV. I didn't ask for it, he did it just because. And o boy it was great, considering my back seems to hurt a lot.

And..although this did not happen today, but, I'll write it down anyway.

A few days ago, as I opened the door after coming back from school, I noticed the shoes were properly arranged. And the whole house was vacuumed clean. And even the kitchen was clean. And also the bathroom! Mr. Husband cleaned the whole house while I was at school. Don't you wish your husband does the same? :)

Owh, and don't forget how he took care of the house and me while I had the miscarriage. He cooked, cleaned, and stayed by my side the whole time..that's really something I won't forget.

Have I told you how much I love my husband?

This much oo

(that's supposed to be the infinity sign haha)

To our first child.

Dear Pushie/Ajoy jr.,

6th August was the day I found that you were in my tummy. It was also mommy&daddy's 6-months anniversary. I found out about it very early in the morning. At about 3am. I couldn't sleep, maybe because I took too much caffeine. Anyway, I called daddy as soon as the second band showed up on the pregnancy test strip. I can't tell you how much daddy smiled that day. From the moment I told him, till night, he was smiling from ear to ear, constantly kissing me and telling me how much he loves you and me.

Everyday from that day onwards, had been wonderful. Although I couldn't physically feel you, but I knew you were in me. You were very tiny, yet only Allah knows how much you drained my energy. But I never complained. I rested as much as I needed, and Alhamdulillah daddy has always been besides me whenever I needed him. Daddy never complained either. We only wanted you to be healthy.

Since the early days of knowing about your existence, I couldn't help but feel worry everytime my lower stomach cramped. I knew you were there. I prayed everytime after my daily prayers for you to be safe. But who am I kidding. I knew a mother's instinct is usually correct. Everytime I felt the cramp, secretly, deep inside, I felt something was wrong. I remember a few days before you left my tummy. There was no pain, no blood, whatsoever. But, somehow I felt you were not there. I felt like I was not pregnant. I didn't want to feel that way, but it's just how I felt. I tried hard to threw away the feeling.

But owh how I was right. A few days after, on 26th August 2010, I started bleeding. It was a very tiny bleeding for a couple of days. But on the 28th night, 12am on the 29th to be exact, the bleeding started to get heavy. Very heavy in fact, as if I got my period. And owh, the cramp. It was a bad cramp, as if I had period pain. I was in a huge worry. Especially when I saw those blood clots. Owh, I can't tell you how much I hoped I would never see you in those blood clots. I couldn't help myself, and I broke into tears. Although daddy was still in high hope that you had survived, deep inside, I knew you hadn't. It was a bad night. I went to bed crying in daddy's arms.

The day after that we went to see a doctor. The doctor asked me to go have the ultrasound done. She also told us the possibility that I had lost you. But daddy's hope was still high. The next day we went to the hospital. They didn't see you in my uterus, but they asked us to go to an ultrasound specialist anyway, as they were not trained for that. We went for external and internal ultrasound the next day. And then it's final. You were not in my tummy anymore. Although I had expected it, it was still very saddening. I had to hold back my tears, and pretended in front of everyone that I was okay, but no, I wasn't. Later that day, I cried my heart out again. And daddy did too.

Pushie/Ajoy jr.,

Although you were in my tummy for 37-38 days (7++ weeks medically), mommy and daddy loved you so much. Maybe that's why it's so hard to learn that you were not with us anymore. I also regret it a bit that we didn't get the chance to take a glance at you. We didn't know how you looked like. For most couples, the first ultrasound appointment is the most exciting ultrasound experience, as that's when they get to see their babies for the first time, but for us, the first ultrasound was the scariest and the saddest experience, as that's when we learned that you were not there anymore. But you know what, it's okay. Although you are not here now, you were here. And you have thought us how it feels to be parents. And we are grateful for that.

This may or may not be a regret, but losing you at day 37-38 might be a good thing. I am pretty sure your soul should have been 'blown' into you on day 40, so I am pretty sure your heart was not beating yet when you went out of my tummy. So, maybe, when I lost you, you were not here, soul-wise. So maybe, mommy and daddy will see you when mommy get pregnant again, insyaAllah.

Anyway, I am just writing to you to completely let go of you. I thought I have let you go, but watching my friends talking about how their babies were waving and kicking during ultrasound reminded me of you, and I couldn't help but feeling sad again. But hey, life goes on. You are gone, but you are never forgotten. You will always be our first child.

Sayang, kami redha kamu sudah tiada.

We love you.

Love;
Mommy and Daddy

For my beloved husband..

To my dearest husband,

I love the fact that we don't simply hang up the phone when we have issues.
I love the fact that we will talk everything to the core and settle everything up once we feel that there's something wrong.
I love the fact that you stay with me despite not liking certain things that I do.
I love the fact that we are comfortable with each other, on the phone or face-to-face, talking or not.
I love the fact that you love me so much, because I love you so much too.
And I will never, ever, trade you with anything else in the world, because I just can't live without you.

Happy one month of marriage sayang.

Love,
Your far-away wife